Dear My Younger Self,
I just want to start by letting you know that you are beautiful in every single way. I know you’ve struggled a lot with loving yourself, feeling unworthy and not good enough but you are worthy and you are moreeee than enough.
You’re not alone. You’re never alone. If you ever do feel alone, please talk to someone. You have so many amazing people around you, don’t overlook them because you’re trying to find something ‘better’.
Stop worrying about how you look and if other people will accept you. You are perfect, and if anybody tells you anything different, dismiss them, they’re not worthy of your energy. What other people have to say about you has NOTHING to do with you. It’s a reflection of their own insecurities and their jealously of something you have that they don’t. Sometimes people are simply just jealous of how others love you. You are insanely beautiful, both inside and out, and don’t you ever forget that.
Everyone knows that you are a strong girl and you’re always the one full of laughter but just remember it’s okay to not be okay sometimes. Don’t be scared of being vulnerable and expressing your emotions, it doesn’t make you weak, it makes you stronger and helps you to heal and grow. Nobody will judge you for being vulnerable, the people who matter in your life will love you and support you always.
Ah friends, you have loads of friends even if you may not see it because you feel so alone. Don’t get me wrong, not all of them are there to stay and some will do you wrong, and that is perfectly okay because not everyone you meet is meant to be in your life permanently. You will create amazing memories with each and every one of them that you will cherish forever. Your true friends will become clearer every year and turn into your non-biological sisters. There is also a whole world of people out there for you to meet and eventually you’ll make friends with people from all walks of life, all over the world. Cool, right?
As for relationships, don’t let ANYBODY make you feel unworthy of being loved because you are more than worthy and you deserve true love just as much as anyone else. Boys that are not good for you will project their insecurities onto you because they know you are too good for them. That boy you’re infatuated with right now, he’s going to break your heart lol and you’ll laugh about it later on, but the hurt will teach you valuable lessons. Those lessons are going to help mould you into the amazing woman you’re going to be. The right one will come eventually, theres no rush. Just focus on yourself, enjoy yourself and don’t regret anything.
I know you and mum don’t see eye to eye very much, in fact barely ever but just remember she’s only got your best interests at heart (and by the way, she is ALWAYS right lol). She is your guardian angel, believe me. She will become your best friend, your biggest inspiration and your teacher all at once. She is strong, just like you are. She is worthy, just like you. And as much as everyone tells you and you deny it, you are exactly like her and trust me, that is a massive compliment. Show your family more love and cherish them, you’ll soon realise they are your entire world and remember that just as you’re getting older, so are they.
Please have patience, with both yourself and life. Life isn’t a race, you can’t have everything when you want it because thats not how life goes. It can be frustrating but don’t let it discourage you. I know you can be hot-headed and have high expectations for yourself and others but please don’t beat yourself up if something doesn’t go your way, or take it out on other people. Learn to channel that energy into something positive and motivation to keep pushing.
Don’t let anybody, especially yourself, tell you that you can’t achieve something because you most definitely can. Your dreams are not unattainable, believe in yourself. Don’t be afraid to step out of your comfort zone, beautiful things await for you outside of that zone. Please do all the things you say you want to. Travel, explore, experiment, be whacky and crazy, laugh and never stop smiling. Time flies by and living a life of ‘what if’s’ is not an option lol. Life is rollercoaster, full of ups, downs, loop-the-loops but just embrace the journey, enjoy it, make the most of it and just remember, “everything will be okay and if it’s not okay, it’s not the end”.
Love you forever,
Your Best Friend x